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Humans have a fear of impermanence. We go against nature and try to preserve, stabilize and control something that resists all of that. - Anicka Yi. Through the lens of spectral - delirium - fiction I imagine a brutalist world where everything is created to be destroyed and the people inhabiting it are well aware of it. A world where preservation is futile, and change is not only constant but instantaneous, challenging the very notion of sustainability. Identifying spectral lines from a pattern observed in the recent times of demolition of brutalist architecture-an expression of honesty and strength has become ephemeral despite the widespread support to preserve it in a democratic world. I draw similarity between democracy and brutalism taking inspiration from Firlei Baez's practice of flipping the narrative of victimhood I connect it with my own practice of employing introspection as a medium of visual narrative to create evidence. Through a series of self portraits spanning childhood to adulthood, I want to realize the concept of seeing through time to see destruction which when looked as separate events could never be noticed. The idea also takes inspiration from Anicka Yi's Tempura Fried Flowers of how an attempt to preserve something has a side effect of destruction. This creates evidence for the possibility of an emotionally neutral world which proposes destruction as a future alternative. A destruction where no one feels the loss as we see through it it challenges the fragility of democratic ideals, the work confronting the viewer with the unsettling reality of impermanence.